Yes, I am okay.
This has been a ridiculous morning. I was watching TV before my class this morning when my roommate came back from campus and told me not to go, and to turn on the news. Originally it was 1-2 victims, then 2-3, then 7-8. That's when I had to just stop watching for a while and went MIA to try and get it off my mind. I came back, and there's 30+ people dead and many in the hospital.
It's hard man. I can only imagine what victims and their families are going through right now. All the phone calls I've had asking if I was okay today were great, but each one just reminded me how it could have been any of my friends in there, or any of my little sister's friends in there. It's tough thinking over things like that. All day long all I've been able to think about is how much I wish I could take that pain for other people, how I wish I was able to protect the people I love at all times, and instead this is a cruel reminder how that's not possible.
Some of my best friends now lived in WAJ, and I just keep remembering going over to their dorms to kill time and hang out. And it makes me wonder if I was there when it happened, would I be able to stop this?
It's been a long day of soul-searching for a lot of my friends and me. How does shit like this happen? How was someone capable of such a thing one of our comrades? And honestly I am pissed off at the school right now. They had over 2 hours before the second shooting to close down campus, warn people, cancel classes, and they didn't. 2 kids were killed in a dorm, the shooter runs loose, and the administration just continues the day like nothing happened? Why did all those people in the second shooting have to die?
I know a lot of you guys are religious, I'd just ask that you pray for the families and students of the school and also for the faculty here and the administration, to give them wisdom and courage to act in the interest of the students. And also like someone else said, even for the family of the shooter. They lost a son today, and I doubt they ever thought he was capable of something like this or even knew about whatever demons were chasing him.